So, like, I forget what my last post was about, and now I'm here.
So I'll just talk about Brian.
I am such a fast typer! I feel like such a success!
Anyway, Brian.
I don't know about him anymore.
He's high right now.
I'm talking to him. Surprised? You shouldn't be.
I think I kind of told him earlier that I have feelings for him.
Major wtf'ing is what I'm doing right now.
I knew I loved him, but I didn't know I liked him.
WTF.
Anyway, it's not one of those weird things where we say "love you" and he means it like, "I love you, sis!" and i mean it like, "I'm in love with you".
First of all: That's fucking twisted.
Deuxiement: No. I'm not in love with him, I'm POSITIVE of that. I could definitely fall in love with him, if I could see him often, or touch him. (He lives really far away)
And THREE: He doesn't love me like a sister. He liked me, too. I don't think he does at the moment. I don't even think I really like him. I think I just think of him in a way that leans in that direction. And, I'm pretty sure he could also be in love with me. If we could be around eachother often.
But, he says I'm not broken.
Oh yeah! That's what I was talking about last time.
The guy who said I was broken.
But Brian says I'm not. And he's a smarty pants in some ways. So I believe him.

Combined sodium bicarbonate and acetic acid today in Science.
Baking soda and Vinegar. Yeah.
It was kind of fun. Kind of not.
Because my ex was like, a couple metres away.
And I still don't really know how we're being towards eachother.
Cos the girl he's with now is the girl he emotionally cheated on with me.
He was in love with me whilst with her... at this time last year. Huh.
Haha, funny how things end up. Well, end up. Nothing is over except me and him.
I kind of like the way things are going. I don't want to be friends with him.
But I want to be friends. You know what I mean?
Like a hand shake. "Friends?" "Friends."
That would be good.
I don't want to actually, like, talk to him often and actually be real friends, but I wouldn't mind if that was the title.
Because I'd like to be able to talk to him if I wanted to.
I kind of am able to already, but I want it to not be weird; which I don't think is impossible.
He cheated on me, and humiliated me. But he's a teenage boy. They're stupid.
I've had a long time to think about my public reaction to this.
And I'm pretty sure I've decided to publicly forgive him.
Whether I actually feel that way or not. I think it's better that way.

Okay, I have to type up a lab for Science.
Talk to you tomorrow.
Love anyone who follows this baby a ton ;).