So, I'm pretty much beyond about Halloween.
I love it.
Like, I actually, seriously, LOVE Halloween.
I would make everyday Halloween, if I could.
It's so hot.
Look, I'm writing this more than a month before Halloween.
That should speak to you about how much I love the thing.

I'm being a sexy rag doll.
I'm so excited! AGH!
I get really overly excited about things, and then I can feel like, bubbles, in my stomach.
It's happiness, I think.
Or something leaning towards that.
But it is for sure happy.

I have bad habits, you know.
I constantly crack my knuckles, and have for the past.. uhm.. six years?
And it's made my fingers obviously crooked, but since I've lost weight, now they're skinny and spidery, and I really like them. Crooked fingers can be really dramatic.

And I chew the inside of my lips.
Like, right where my teeth are, and inside the corners of my mouth.
I chew the mucus membrane right offa there.
Once, on my right side, I hit a vein.
It was so gross and terrible, even though blood tastes good.
I don't really like blood.
Good for photography but not good for my mind.
I get disturbed easily, because my mind wanders to really odd places.

Oh! Another bad habit is always making big decisions.
I should leave that to someone else once in a while.
But I'm always the leader. I call all the shots.
I'm the confident one, in almost any group of people.
But sometimes I don't want all that weight on my shoulders.
It's more than nine percent of my body weight, and that's just not a good thing.
I am much too petite for that shit.
I'm only 5'1/2''.
Yeah, I'm really small. I really like it.
It suits me like crazy.

I have a huge personality, a big ego, really big style.
And I'm small.
Instead of swallowing me, these things balance out my size.

I'm really tired.
It's almost 4:00 in the morning.
Is that a song? Yes.

About a month ago, I decided to cut all my hair off.
I really liked it.
I'm pretty, so it looked good on me.
I look like Marilyn Monroe/Keira Knightley/Leighton Meester.
Marilyn Monroe: pretty much my whole face, even the shape.
Keira Knightley: lips, eyes and cheekbones.
Leighton Meester: whole mouth area, and cheeks.

I'm happy about this, because they are all beautiful.
Maybe one day I'll think I'm beautiful.
For now I just think I'm hot.
Huge difference.

I'm growing my hair really long now though.
Down to my waist. (Which btw, is not hips. It's the smallest part of you. That part right below your bustline.)
I have hair.. pretty much exactly like Leighton Meester.
So, it'll be good.
It probably won't take all that long.
Two years, about.

I'm excited for all the cool hairs I'll have in the growing out stage.
I've planned a bunch of them.

Anyway.
I'll post pictures of each hair I have.
I'll post a picture of myself now on this one.
But for lots of pictures, go to http://howtheylookatme.blogspot.com/.

I really want to be in love again.
Which is totally new.
For the past three months, I've been like, "fuck off, love, I hate you".
But I've had a change of heart.
More on this later today, after I've slept.
Love xox.

Here you go.
Me.
Fuzzy webcam picture, sorry.
It's the most recent one that actually looks like me.